Baby #3
Faith does not make things easy, it makes them possible . Luke 1:37 On April 7th, 2020 we learned that another baby was on the way. The initial excitement I felt faded off really quick. I started feeling guilty with lots of fear. Am I replacing Waverly? What if the same thing happens again? I have found it really hard to fully enjoy this pregnancy. At my first OB appointment, I was greeted by a midwife who said “So you had a miscarriage right?” My mouth, covered by a mask, disguised the disgusted look on my face. Did she really not check my chart first? I said no, my daughter died a little after birth. She had a genetic condition we found out early on. She quickly apologized and moved on in the conversation. My first ultrasound, at 7 weeks, I had to go myself. I was nervous, but saw that beautiful heartbeat. Still I didn’t feel that “joy”. At my second OB appointment, I was greeted by the MA who said, so you have two babies already? I said yes. She asked what gender they were. I s