How are you doing?

How are you doing? How are you feeling? Those are the questions I get whenever I’m out and about and run into someone I know. I usually just say “fine” or “taking it day by day”.
The truth is, I’m still very early on in my grief journey. Each day brings its own challenges, it’s own “triggers” as us loss parents call it.
I’m still recovering from my c-section, but I really can’t complain about the physical aspect. I feel pretty good physically. Of course I’m still limited on the things that I can do, but I am feeling pretty close to normal. Emotionally, well I don’t think I will ever be 100% again. A part of me will always be longing for Waverly, this is the new me, and I have to accept that. I still laugh and I still smile but I also go through the stages of grief everyday. I have good days and bad days... and that is to be expected. Like I said, I’m still early on in this process.
We’ve dedicated three areas in our home for Waverly. She has a spot in the living room, that will eventually get moved once we build her a nice shelving unit. A spot in our bedroom. And what would have been her nursery, she has a little table set up in there.

We visit her often. We just started decorating her little spot for fall. We ordered her marker, still finalizing the design but it should be installed by Halloween. 

I wanted to also thank everyone who reached out. The messages, the cards, the flowers, gifts.. it all means so much. Although we haven’t replied to every single message, please know they we read them all. So thank you for thinking of us. The biggest gift of them all is when people say her name, so please don’t be afraid to talk about her.